Reality is starting to sink in and I feel like I need to escape from it all for awhile. I still haven't learned to handle stress and I feel like I'm ready to break. I'm still trying to adjust to grad school and suddenly have the added strain of moving out in the next 15 days. When I first heard the news yesterday that we needed to be out soon I thought of it as an adventure. Since then, my act has failed and I am loosing the superficial confidence I was able to put on earlier.
This quarter is compacted into 8 weeks rather than 10, and is an intensive "review" of gross anatomy complete with a cadaver lab. We also are taking a kinesiology course that has many physics concepts I have never been exposed to. I feel like I've been playing catch up from day one. We're now 1/4 of the way through the quarter. The long days of class and intensive study are wearing me thin and my motivation as well as my concentration are melting away.
Our sudden housing situation is also a great concern to me. We are so blessed that Bob now has a mostly permanent job so we have more options. We'd like to take advantage of the housing market, but are not sure what our options are as far as that goes. So far there are not houses in the area that seem to be just right. At the same time, we're hesitant to rent again, because every monthly payment for rent could be going towards something we own instead that is about the same monthly cost.
Sometimes I long for the simplicity of life I had as a kid. Sure there were worries, but they were insignificant in many ways, especially when compared to the responsibilities I have today. It seems as though those days went by way too fast. I wonder what it would be like to go back just for a day and forget about grad school, bills, health concerns and housing woes.
I need to remember that God is in control. He hasn't let us down, and I'm sure he won't now. I just wish I knew how to trust more. Perhaps He will use this to teach me that lesson. I look forward to when God turns the next page in the chapter of our life and reveals what His plans are for us.
Sounds like you might need some help packing!! Wish I could offer to help...hope you find a beautiful home! Just take one day at a time and do only the most important things everyday. Including taking time to recharge your batteries. You will survive!
ReplyDeleteIf you need any help packing up let me know, I would be happy to lend you guys a hand.
ReplyDeleteI also know a great realtor if you need one, he's out of town right now but will be back in a little under a week.
Let me know if I can do anything. :)
I would offer to help you guys move again, but everyone else already has! You know my offer still stands of course.
ReplyDeleteLet's do a coffee date or something this weekend maybe, huh? Break from studying or something so you can recharge and not think about stuff (or let off steam, either one!). Let me know!